model wanna be.

i was a model , yes i am. but im getting fat and i quit and then i've done crazy diet and im getting skinny again ,but im not a model anymore. i really want to be but just not the right time. maybe sometimes.

well i got some (maybe?) good photoshoot. there are some of it ;)

well,,,, is not really that bad right? maybe its doesnt look like a real model ,maybe next time i post it when i really really become a model . amin ^^

getting close

HURAAAY!!!
yey my mom and him were geting close and getting close again,
yesterday is one of the best day i ever know ...
me , my boyfriend and my mom were going shopping and having dinner together
first because SimpangLima is closed because Semarang anniversary so we cant go to CL or Paragon then we're going to JavaMall.
im so excited because we are having so much fun, im in love with him
and im in love with my mom too hhe
and both people who ilove so much were getting close !!! oh my god who the hell i am if im not happy ? of course im happy , getting crazy maybe hahaha




:*******

take it and dont break it

Putra Bintang Rizalditya

yes that is his name,
ilove his name as much as i love him hehe
finally after a longlong time yes im fallin in love
maybe i never get any long relationship b4 ,i just got like 5 month and 9 month but i thought that i'll get it soon .
with this man i'm sure that everything is gonna be okay
i love him and he loves me
i miss him everytime like he miss me too
i look at his eyes because he look at my eyes first
i hug him and dont wanna let him go
i dont know how long this relationship could be, but i hope this is last forever
however and whatever happens i will always remember him ,
ilove him i trust him i miss him ,
:*
my dear one , i just can see it in your eyes how much you love me ,
thanks bby . for once again . iloveyou

life is short

now here i am ,
typing for what im thinking about.
i just remember , life is just too short for people like us,

15 years and i still think that i wasted my times , my short lifes with a lot of things that very borrrriiiing .

in past , like 8 years ago . my dad passed away ,and he still 36 years old.
im still in 2nd grade . and i still cant believe that ,
he handsome and awesome
he is my superhero
and he was my future husband ,

nobody can choose their life,
nobody can make her own destiny .
every single way that i do is also usefull but thats not effective actually
we can see , people on the road ,
people who sleep with no bed ,
no respect
and no love.

maybe those people cannot make their own destiny
but if they can make their life better, but i think that they just dont get it , how is life things, this THING work
they just regret ,
they just gave up .
they dont understand how to make their life better

and now , they sleep in the cold dark side,
without no bed, no stories , no blanket, no kiss, no love, no food, no money , and hopeless

thats why i want to say to all of you who read this
maybe we cant make our own destiny , but if we try we can make it better
so dont you ever gave up and surrender
we just have to keep our passion to make it stronger

i believe that everybody can do it.
just keep trying people.

xoxo , WD

duniaku

oke ak cm mau sharing aja tentang hidup ku .
duniaku , dan pandanganku

mungkin di pandangan orang lain aku itu berkesan bahagia, mewah dan seneng terus
tapi mereka ga tau di balik semua itu terkadang aku nangis , sedih , nglamun dll
kita tu harus mensyukuri .i know .
tapi kadang hidup itu sakit ya , bener kata bapak sosio ,
"hidup itu buruk, hidup itu indah , hidup itu buruk tetapi bisa menjadi indah apabila kita berusaha."
aku kadang bsa seneng banget bisa ketawa banget sama temen2 sama kluarga
tapi kadang aku bs sedih banget sampe nangis2 cuma gara2 satu msalah

kamu tau ga hidupitu bisa jadi sesuatu yang sempurna apabila kita terus jadi suatu org yg konsisten , dan hidup itu bisa jadi buruk banget kalau kt sendiri g bs ngertiin diri kita sendiri . :)

i wish you were burn in hell

yah , buat kalian semua cowok2 yang ngerasa ga setia dan ga bs ngehargain perasaan cewek lain ,
that tittle is the good one for you , burn in hell boys

oke first of all ,
bs ga sih kalian tu cuma deketin satu cewek aja?
aku yakin dluar sana ada cowok yang setia dan g bakal nyia2 in cewek yang dia deketin gtu aja
tapi kalian yang ada d skitarku skrg ,
use your brain dude, ! oh i think you dont hv any, good

kalian pikir kalian tu yg terbaik ya?
malemnya ngrayu kek , blg sayang kek , nembak kek
paginya? siang nya? malemnya? besoknya , kamu udh sama cewek lain
yah ,thats the one what makes me really want to kill you , cut you in piece and burn you into a dust , feel that !

yah aku harep cowok2 yang ga kayak gtu bs tetep setia sm pcrnya
tlg deh jgn brubah , dont change into a jerk like them

and maybe i can find one of that type , the one who respect me and i respect him , the one who love me and i love him , the one who stare in my eyes and say iloveyou like i do love him
i hope so ,
thats all , i already threw up everything , thanks

dance with my father again :')

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him,
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love, to dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my momma said
Later that night, when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal
One final glance
One final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I'd pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she' s dying to dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream